I am so stressed right now

[guanin]

And what is so ridiculous about that is I'm stressing myself out. It's not schoolwork; I don't even have any. This is the easiet semester in seven years of college. I know that next semester I'm going to get pummeled in grad school, though, so I've been considering this as a bit of a vacation. It gives me time to write and that's the reason why I'm feeling like this. I finally tried giving myself a deadline to finish something, because I need to learn time management, (although really I have another fic idea encroaching on my mind that's not letting me concentrate) and combined with the interminable process of getting into grda school, I got myself so worked up and I didn't even notice until now. I'm writing this down just to give my brain space to breathe. I didn't know that self imposed deadlines could be as stressful as professor imposed ones. And I still have to fill out transcript request forms and write the statement of purpose for the last university. I've had the application sitting on a shelf with both letters of reference for like two weeks. Ayayay.

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[tju-tju-tju-tju.livejournal.com]

:((( *hugs* Deadlines are always a problem for me, too. "I'll finish the fic tomorrow, I promise!" And then I um. Don't. So you're not alone.

[guanin.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I feel better now, since I successfully met the deadline. Yay! It's the first time I've been able to do that. I'm like that, too. I always say, "I'm going to finish it today", the three days later I'm still working on it. Stupid never ending stories.

[likeahobbit.livejournal.com]

Aw. ::hugs:: Sometimes, I think you really have to get up and walk away from whatever you're working on at the moment if it gets too stressful. I fail enormously at deadlines.

::sends you nice smelling things and a stress ball::

[guanin.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm much better now. I didn't realize how worked up I was getting over the whole thing until it suddenly hit me. Half of it is the whole grad school thing, which I really do need to stop ignoring. It's just one thing I have left to do now, but I don't want to do it. *is lazy*

I was able to finish the second draft I was working on in time, though. Now I just need the final revisions. But writing the first draft was hell. I had to stop writing several times because my brain was dead from the tension. You'll know why soon; I'm posting the first part now.

[all-who-i-am.livejournal.com]

What are you studying at college?

(wants you back in Hagaren ♥)

[guanin.livejournal.com]

I'm studying History of the Americas, though I'm also fascinated by 17th and 18th century maritime history. I'm heading for grad school in the fall and the applications are driving me crazy.

I'm still reading Hagaren, but Heroes has completely taken over my brain. I've also got an original novel in the works, though I've just started it. I may write something Hagaren oriented, though. You never know.

[all-who-i-am.livejournal.com]

Then I HAVE to ask you what do you think of fetus!Envy!

I am still rereading your KimbleyxEnvy fics.

[guanin.livejournal.com]

I am still rereading your KimbleyxEnvy fics.

Really? Thst is so nice to hear! *grins*

Tiny Envy is so cute! I was giggling the entire time he appeared in chapter 80. He really doesn't have the right to call Ed a shrimp anymore, now that he basically looks like one. He's not exactly helpless, by what he did to Yoki, but his rapid demotion from a superbly powerful being to a tiny nothing must be so humiliating. I hear Kimbley chuckling in my head. I may have a bunny coming up, though I promise nothing. :)