I am so stressed right now

[guanin]

And what is so ridiculous about that is I'm stressing myself out. It's not schoolwork; I don't even have any. This is the easiet semester in seven years of college. I know that next semester I'm going to get pummeled in grad school, though, so I've been considering this as a bit of a vacation. It gives me time to write and that's the reason why I'm feeling like this. I finally tried giving myself a deadline to finish something, because I need to learn time management, (although really I have another fic idea encroaching on my mind that's not letting me concentrate) and combined with the interminable process of getting into grda school, I got myself so worked up and I didn't even notice until now. I'm writing this down just to give my brain space to breathe. I didn't know that self imposed deadlines could be as stressful as professor imposed ones. And I still have to fill out transcript request forms and write the statement of purpose for the last university. I've had the application sitting on a shelf with both letters of reference for like two weeks. Ayayay.

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Thank you. I'm much better now. I didn't realize how worked up I was getting over the whole thing until it suddenly hit me. Half of it is the whole grad school thing, which I really do need to stop ignoring. It's just one thing I have left to do now, but I don't want to do it. *is lazy*

I was able to finish the second draft I was working on in time, though. Now I just need the final revisions. But writing the first draft was hell. I had to stop writing several times because my brain was dead from the tension. You'll know why soon; I'm posting the first part now.