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It's official. I'm no good working in an office. So since I've messed up big every single day I've gone in to the internship, today my supervisor and I had "the chat". I can't even book a rental car without making a headache for everyone. So I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I'm looking for stuff that does not have in an office. Which might be impossible, because every internship I've seen is in one. But at least something that plays to my strengths, not everything I've always been bad at. I'm actually relieved, because I hated this job, I was not doing anything that would help me, and it's marketing, so networking wouldn't work. And I've always hated conventional marketing. I never watch or listen to commercials because most are so damn obnoxious. Anyway, that's not really related to the problem here. It just wasn't working out.

Also, I'm no good for producing. I already realized in production class, but this was the nail in the coffin. I would have no time for the creative stuff, which is no good at all. It's not the life I want.

Yesterday's film shoot was great though. Well, except for the cars passing by and the obnoxious person going up and down the stairs right beside the basement we were filmimg in, making us do takes over and over again just to get new sound, which stretched out one short scene from 12:30 to 6:30. Yes, 6 hours on one little scene. The lights alone took almost three hours because off wonky shadows. Lighting is hard. I cannot emphasize that enough. I got invited to a screenwriters group by the producer, who perked up (he looked really excited) when I said that I studied Latin American history. The Filmmakers group we're part of makes shorts throughout the year, too, and they're a really friendly group of people. I did get stuck when one of them asked me who my influences were. I can't exactly say "fanfiction writers", now can I? Sure, original fiction must have influenced me too, but there's no particular author I would pick out. My favorites in the published realm tend to write stuff completely different from what I do.

I watched Avatar for a fifth time on Saturday because my cousin hadn't seen it and he had to see on the big screen before it comes out on DVD. At least it had been a long while since the last time and it was in 3D, so there was a new element. And I didn't get dizzy! Everyone I know has been complaining that it's not 3D enough because the images don't jump out at you save a few, it's more like the screen deepens, but that's probably why I didn't get dizzy. I don't want to have a humongous bird thing jump a foot away from me. The trailers were in that kind of 3D and I wasn't handling it to well. I hope more 3D movies are like this one, because else with this 3D craze I'm not going to handle it well.